EBN- Former reality star Kendra Wilkinson has said she “hit rock bottom” and was “dying of depression” when she was admitted to hospital after suffering a panic attack last year.
The TV personality found fame at the age of 18 as one of Hugh Hefner’s girlfriends in the reality series The Girls Next Door, about life in the Playboy Mansion.
The 38-year-old said it is difficult to look back on that time in her life, adding: “Playboy really messed my whole life up.”
Kendra Wilkinson told People magazine: “It’s not easy to look back at my 20s. I’ve had to face my demons.”
She added: “I was on drugs at age 15 and I had a lot of issues.
“I really got into deep regret (afterwards) … deep. I struggled with depression before and at the mansion. I drank a lot. I was there for the partying, OK, let’s just be real. I was not there for Hugh Hefner to be my boyfriend.”
In hospital last year she was placed on the antipsychotic medication Abilify and later began outpatient therapy three times a week.
Discussing how she felt when she went to hospital, she told the magazine: “I was in a state of panic. I didn’t know what was going on in my head and my body or why I was crying. I had hit rock bottom.”
She added: “I was dying of depression. I was hitting the end of my life, and I went into psychosis. I felt like I wasn’t strong enough to live anymore.
“It was the lowest place I’ve ever been in my life. I felt like I had no future. I couldn’t see in front of my depression.”
